I just had a fight. with a lil innocent child. she just did something which was so painful. somethin that probably adults do all the time. and they are called traitors and bitches. yep! but she’s just a lil child. and yet she managed to draw the same result. jealousy. gosh can be so devastating. and captivating. it makes you do insane things. I wonder if parents feel like this. if they feel betrayed and unloved. it was easy as a kid to say they don’t own me. but to be on the other side and to have loved unconditionally and un have bared oneself so much that you’re completely vulnerable and and to be rejected . its painful. I know I have fears of being a parent. this is one of them of 'it' not being grateful enough. of them leaving you like you were a stranger . picking others over you, without a shred of thoughtfulness. its amazing how easily they can do that. and if you oppose you become the bad guy and you are a control freak and you seem like a villain whom they want to challenge and fight against. but for the sake of the love in your heart, that pitiful organ that seems to do the thinking instead of simply pumping blood like its designed to do, because of that heart, the stupid love in the heart, you let them go . you ‘set them free '; and whats worse is the joy they experience, the liberation they feel, makes you cringe even more . it burns that stupid heart to see they can be happy without you. that they’re actually happy and they’re oblivious about the pain you’re experiencing. they waltz past you without the least bother . kids . people. humans. never put your trust in them . never bare yourself so much they can take advantage of you! that they can use your love against you! like the sword thru your heart! that cuts that very organ . and then twist the sword , and bury it deeper. and deeper. till you fall and your breath like your love is sucked out of your body. NEVER.